Small Wonder's note of ThAnks...

Some good moments of my life are passing by me now. I wish i could get hold of them just like when i was a small kid i got hold of a peacock's feather and hid it safe within my book and smiled joyously every time i saw it. But sadly i cannot snatch away these moments and hold them close to my heart. But i am not ready to lose heart. I have decided to turn them into sweet memories and treasure them within the inner folds of my small heart.


Most of the previous posts of 2009 have been about my pathetic situations in life, about the moments when my life neared death. Some have even been made when i was totally wrecked - reading them makes me feel like a knife is cutting through me and that i am bleeding badly.

Soooo, now why to be sad? As we all say - after a tiresome climb up-hill there must be a soothing journey down-hill. Some also say - God is never unfair. Even i say the same.

I had many friends, accomplices near and dear and even dearest in my 4 years of college life. Many of them, nearly all of them were never with me as i desired them to be with me or did empathize with me when i groaned badly and writhed under the pain of the harsh cruel trials in my life. It was then i realized that 'A friend in need is the greatest friend'. I am not one of the idea that friends or relations are ones with whom we laugh and that when we cry they vanish.

There were some blog-visitors of mine who imparted me the strength through their words being miles away. One among them is Abhilash Suryan Sir. This comment that he gave me months back on my post "The Bewilderment phase must end" i published it on my blog a few days before only.

Also my sincerest word of thanks to some of the unexpected friends who stood by me through my tough days - i wonder why they ever helped me, maybe God's angels they were. If not for these few people i would not have been what i am now cz i would have ended my life long back in January '09. Thanks my dear ones for saving my life.

Thanks to Lord Almighty and all my friends - his angels - that have drawn me out of the pathetic plight in my life and helped me to rise from that 'Lonely Bench'.

Now I am no longer desperate about what to do next as I have got an admission for MS in Financial Engineering in Polytechnic Institute of New York University for the fall 2009 stream and hence i am leaving on the 25th Aug, 2009. Once again thanks from the depth of my heart to all my sincere well-wishers.

Above all, God has been merciful enough to turn me into the Kerala University First Rank Holder for the B.Tech examination for Information Technology(2005-'09).

I am now transformed to a person who loves to extend a loving helping hand to the ones that groan under the pain in their lives.

Ready to HIT THE ROADS....

"Oh, dear dear dear God please don't let me fall off this bike now, please please let me make a good 8 and pass the test". This was what i kept mumbling all the time i was trying hard to make a seamless "8" on the Bajaj M80 taking my license test for motorcycle with gear.

On 24th July, i took my license test for car as well as for motorcycle with gear. I was the lone little girl who took my license for motorcycle 'with gear' - just because my parents wanted me to be the 'unique' Miss Wonder. And not because i have any big wish to go on our roads on a Big Bullet!



Here in Trivandrum currently tests are held at the Shangumugham ground - which is soon to be changed. So though the heat of the day may seem unbearable for the people waiting their license tests from as early as 6 am, the air from the sea with the WonDerFul fragrance does keep one as happy as ever - i was in fact made happy.

We - me, my amma and papa - made our presence in the ground at 6:30 am. I had a few trial rounds on the M80 which i saw for the first time the previous day only owing to the pitiable condition of my driving school's vehicles, and also 2 rounds of H on the car. After that the test began. I never forgot to hold my umbrella atop on constant fear of getting a bad tan on my face. :D

I initially had my H-test on car, then my awesome 8-test on M80 my road test on car and then on M80 - all pass and emerging all smiles at 2 pm with lots of thanks to GOD when i never expected to pass them all. So i am all ready as a good Certified Driver ready to jump on into my dream car - there in the pic - thats the type of car i like to drive and will surely OWN.

Heal The World - by Michael Jackson

This song, by the King of the Pop - Michael Jackson, is a must-hear for all the 'living'. Here i present the lyrics of the song.It is my all time favorite and makes me think of another part of the world which is otherwise neglected.


little girl talking -

((i think about the gererations
and thay say thay want to make it
a better place for our children & our children's children
so that thay thay thay know it's a better world for them
and i think thay can make it a better place))

There's A Place In Your Heart
And I Know That It Is Love
And This Place Could Be Much
Brighter Than Tomorrow
And If You Really Try
You'll Find There's No Need To Cry
In This Place You'll Feel
There's No Hurt Or Sorrow

There Are Ways To Get There
If You Care Enough For The Living
Make A Little Space
Make A Better Place...

Heal The World
Make It A Better Place
For You And For Me
And The Entire Human Race
There Are People Dying
If You Care Enough
For The Living
Make A Better Place
For You And For Me

If You Want To Know Why
There's A Love That Cannot Lie
Love Is Strong
It Only Cares For Joyful Giving
If We Try We Shall See
In This Bliss We Cannot Feel Fear Or Dread
We Stop Existing And Start Living

Then It Feels That Always
Love's Enough For Us Growing
So Make A Better World
Make A Better World...

...Heal The World

And The Dream We Were Conceived In
Will Reveal A Joyful Face
And The World We Once Believed In
Will Shine Again In Grace
Then Why Do We Keep Strangling Life
Wound This Earth Crucify Its Soul
Though It's Plain To See
This World Is Heavenly Be God's Glow

We Could Fly So High
Let Our Spirits Never Die
In My Heart I Feel You Are All My Brothers
Create A World With No Fear
Together We'll Cry Happy Tears
See The Nations Turn Their Swords Into Plowshares

We Could Really Get There
If You Cared Enough
For The Living
Make A Little Space
To Make A Better Place...

...Heal The World

You And For Me
Make A Better Place
You And For Me
heal the wordl we live in
You And For Me
save it for our children


The song is the first in the list in the Deezer player in my blog at present.
This post is also a tribute to the 'great songs' gifted to all of us by demised Michael Jackson.

Saying Good-bye to GEC ~

I am no more the little girl, too innocent for this world, of 17 yrs - but now i am the young woman of 21, the one who saw many of the harsh realities of life as well as the sweetness of campus life - in my scholastic achievements, in the various friends who walked past and who stuck on. This must serve as a short appropriate synopsis of my 4 years in Government Engineering College, Barton Hill.


On June 13th 2009 I had my last exam. Tiny tear drops did find their way from my eyes as I inwardly bid adieu to all those loving days the 'most traditional' classrooms where i did weave a million of million memories to last me a lifetime. It is these 4 years that transformed me into what i am today. Within those walls i came to know how success tasted, how sour and bitter failure tastes when it comes at the expectancy of success. Did not i know how nice friendship can be, and how lonely it feels when deprived of by one's friends? Yes, this poor soul of mine did know all of those. GEC did teach me to survive on my own too.

More than all, I started blogging at some odd instant in these years. And i truly cherish this SmallWonderz blog of mine. Thanks to all my blog visitors who are a constant source of encouragement and some who have imparted strength to me at tough times.

Now i am looking forward into the future ahead, a small smile is playing on my lips as well. Will God ever leave Miss Small Wonder so forlorn?

Has not Keats so rightly said "Heard melodies are sweet, and melodies yet to be heard are sweeter?"

Ever seen the April LiLy??

April Lily is a special flowering plant of the Lily family. I have this plant coming up once every year with a big red pretty flower on its top in the month of April, in my Grandma's garden. It stays for nearly a month and then disappears. Then it meets us only in the same time next year. This year i could not find this flower nor the plant in April. Rather it decided to show up in the month of May - the pranks of nature.

May 10 - 'M'uch Speci'A'l Da'Y'

Today is the day very dear to me...
Last year this day....


May 10, 2008 - a Saturday - will ever live in my memory through all the years i will tread. What is so special about that day is in fact a bad question to ask, but is what is not special about that day is a good question. Last May 10 i spent in St.Mary's School from 7:30 in the morning. I went for a placement program organized by BigLeap for iflex - Oracle Financing Solutions. I went there with an entirely different aim because i was stuck in home for more than a month. After the initial test, we three(?) sat there and talked and had lunch in Ariya Jyothi. Then they both felt very thirsty when we went to Kedaram and had juice which made us feel like throwing up. Then ran back to the school. Then what all happened did change me, my attitude and the memories are ever-green. I cannot pen down the day's events here, but they keep rewriting themselves in my memory over and over again. I also got placed in iflex that day. Whichever day shall pass me without my knowledge, May 10 can never. I think i did make a post about the month of May last year in my blog too.

...Sweet memories are like soothing breeze
Which i long will always caress
My tender heart and keep it ReD...

PS: In some ways it was a day which gave my life a kind of a bad turn too...hmmm!!!